About Me :)

Welcome to the Wonderful World of LostBumblebee!

If you are looking for amazing free printables you are in the right place! Seriously, who doesn't love something free- especially if it rocks?!

Chilling with my favourite scarf, in my favourite chair, with
Favourite drink :) 

Some people ask my why I create free graphics, why don't I charge for them? You know, I have a graphic design company (LostBumblebee Graphics), I make logos, and posters, and hand lettered works of art and charge for all of it, but this place, my blog- this is my creative outlet. I just want to make the world a prettier place one print at a time... And being I have no wall space left in my house, I am sharing them with you!

If you'd like a glimpse into my personal life, how this blog came about, keep reading. If you'd like a short mini version- check this print out, I think it says a lot :) 

If you are more curious than that grab a cup of coffee and chill with me for a little while...and get to know me a little.

Many of you don't know my personal story (if you are visual, you can check it out in an info graphic here), actually it's probably safe to say, that most people don't know my story.  It's not that different than some of yours -I'm sure. But, then again, maybe it is.

I'm going to jump right in, why beat around the bush, there is a specific reason why this blog became what it is, and here is that story:

We deal with fertility issues. I will not say we are infertile, because that isn't true. We are fertile. We just have fertility issues (!)  

Me with 'Timothy the Dog'. My co-creator and best buddy!

The hubby and I have been through 4 rounds of IVF (you can read about IVF here and ICSI here we did ICSI- 4 times. yup. 4.) Going through life changing and life altering experiences can be hard on a girl. It wasn't easy. After our 4th failed attempt I sunk pretty low. I was was forced to re-evaluate my life. My Purpose. What am I going to do now?

You know sometimes you get depressed and or frustrated about a situation in your life (you don't like your job, your community, your lifestyle) well you change the situation.  You do something different. It is in your power to make a change. Get a different job, move to a new community, change your lifestyle. You can make changes that will change the current situation. There are answers-  BUT when dealing with fertility [having done everything possible there is to do (yup, everything)]. There is no changing that. There is nothing you can do, except;  pray, believe, hope and wait. I've done so much praying it is ridiculous. So much waiting, hoping and believing that I am sure some people think I am just a nut when I continue to say, "when we have kids".

So what do you do when your entire life is turned upside down, not as a result of a decision you've made, but as a result of ... there is no word to put in here, there is no answer, there is nothing. You are just left holding a bag of nothing. NOTHING. No answer, no solution, no reason. Nothing. What do you do? Well I got a little depressed, ate a little too much chocolate (as if there is any such thing), gained a little weight, drank a little beer. I cried a lot. I prayed a lot, I tried to bargain with God, I tried not to hate myself, not to hate my husband and not to hate my life. But as hard as I tried, I just kept getting more sad.

After settling at what I like to call rock bottom, a place I couldn't see anyway out of. A miracle happened (yup I used the word miracle). I don't know if you believe in miracles or not. But I do. I do because this was a miracle. period. 

Super simple morning routine, nothing different was going on.  Jumped in the shower, as soon as I got in, the light turned on in my life. I had clarity. I knew what my purpose was. I had always known that I was born to create- I needed to start creating.  If I were to describe this as a picture, I would say I drove into a carwash in a black car and came out in a white car. Serious, black and white.  Try to convince me this wasn't a miracle, you'll go blue in the face ;)

You see when you grow up believing that your purpose is to be a mom. When that is taken away from you? Where do you go? how do you reformulate something that was so ingrained in my heart, in my being. Something I had hoped, dreamed and wished for all of my life. Well I'm not sure I could on my own. Hence my Miracle.

My heart changed. I realized  I was so blessed. I am so blessed. My attitude changed in a moment of time. It became so full of gratitude and appreciation for my life and for my world (and if you are reading this, you are part of my world). I began to cultivate that attitude. To nurture it. To live it.

My backyard one of my favourite places on earth.

I started a blog, because I was going to be brave and get out there with some of my creative stuff, I was going to show the world. I started writing about creativity. I started writing about design. I was horrible. seriously. I've left the old posts up so that I can see what I thought I was suppose to do, versus what I am suppose to do.

January 2013 I started sharing my printables. I would post a free graphic every once in a while-  I just kept posting. One foot in front of the other, It was making me happy.  Just knowing my work was out there for people to see and download if they wanted too. In August I had what I like to call THE BIG WEEK! (click to read about it) and I set a goal to post a new graphic every day for 7 days. Well that has been ongoing every since. I don't strive to post a new graphic daily, it just happens. I start working and it is born. And because I am no longer willing to keep stuff lying around on my computer incase one day I "may" be able to sell it- I post it!


So I guess there you have it. There is a tiny glimpse of why I do what I do... I am a creative being. I believe I was created to create! To make things, I am happiest making things. I am happy doing stuff with my hands- and I have a found a great source of Joy in sharing and giving!


My hope for you is that you find your passion and your purpose. I believe everyone's purpose on this earth is to love. So start with that. Start loving. Open your heart, and your passion will pursue you...

Share the love,
M.

again with the coffee :)

Oh yes, and one last thing- I LOVE COFFEE :) as you can probably tell from this post; and this one, and maybe even this one! Not convinced? just click the coffee link above :)